Don't deny it

You loook at other females's crotches and asses on aerobic classes. Not that it's bad, it's just something funny how It's hard to look away when you have a woman legs wide opened facing you, just to compare you know... guys do it at bathrooms, we at aerobics lol

You are beautiful the way you are

Sometimes you just need to be told you're beautiful the way you are. Sometimes you need someone to tell you he/she loves you the way you are and'd still love you even if you were 1000 pounds. To tell you you're not fat, and that you must be VERY STRONG to work your tail off and do all that crazy stuff to be thin.

I wish someone'd tell me he/she apreciates that I don't abuse diuretics the way I used to and that it doesn`t matter if I'm not THAT skinny. I wish someone would tell me I'm beautiful the way I am for what I am inside.

I wish someone besides myself would tell me I'm better off pills. That even If I'm chubby I'm not that bad and I don't need them.

That taking diuretics, sibutramine, orlistat, two cups of green tea and two cups of dieting tea everyday must be a huge effort, and not just "oh, you do? It doesn't look like",

"You're telling me you won't have any ice cream because It has a lot of calories? You're already fat" OH THAT WAS ME BULLYING MYSELF ...again...

That many times you procastinate studying to work out or to read on the internet looking for someone coming threw the same things you are.

Sometimes you need someone to tell you, you don't need that to be beautiful 'cuz you already are beautiful.

I just wish someone would know what if feels inside when you work this hard. And then you get the guts and gain the courage and you finally tell him/her what you feel for him/her and he/she CHANGES THE SUBJECT... and gets all friendly and pretends I just didn't declare myself, but does he want me to say? Oh ok, maybe he's shy, only time can tell.

I'm not giving up. Friday night: bright lights, music, dance, pretty clothes and makeup.
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